Friday, March 16, 2012

i changed my life today. it took a little more thought, and time, than expected.

my life begins anew today.  seriously.  that's how it feels.  that's how i feel.  these past few days have been particularly rough as i've rummaged the decision to release, finally, 6 years -- no, lots, lots more -- of something that has loaded my life, my humour, my conscience, my smile.  ah, why can't i tell you what?  my intention is not cryptic.  and apparently i still need to become a bit more comfortable with this....but i. am. free.

and he was right...it was as ridiculously easy as sending a couple of emails.  thank you, gonzolo.  our conversation last night was immensurate. 

but it wasn't easy...this thing that i did today.  when is such a cherished outcome ever easy...or simple?  ...or ridiculous?

why do we fight nature so?  honestly, what i did today was not an epiphany.  it was not a spur of the moment decision.  i knew it would make me happy.  i knew it.  ...so why did it take so long?  maybe because 4 months ago, my world, as i live it, was fundamentally, on so many levels, different.  my foundation has shifted...in at least 5 ways...and only 2 of which i had control. 


"everybody knows we live in a world where we don't give beautiful things a second glance."

that's not me.

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