one stop shop for all things family

the beauty about roller derby is that you can experience so much of life...all in one place.

i am driven to share this post today because three people of derby (two sisters and a husband and a brother in law) have embarked on creating a new life.  i am not very close friends with any of them.  in fact, i am relatively new to the roller derby crowd.  and as with most things in my life that i can just tell will mean a lot to me...i dip a toe and stay shy, stay quiet, be grossly meek...until i feel it safe and figure out where i belong.  but yet, all the meanwhile, externally, i dive right in wanting to be all helpful and important and contribute and all -- because it's clear to me that it's worth it.  yes, it makes for a difficult balance...and i feel the scales tipping ALL the time...in both directions.  woah.

((why do i always do this to myself?  ...her query laced with concern, a hint of frustration, yet always with a devilish eye))

but, with derby, it seems this process of figuring out and opening up...truly joining...has taken a lot longer than i expected.   at first i thought this because i was introduced into the world of derby feeling i already had a history there, one not comfortable and out of my control, creating an instant imbalance.   but i also think it's because there are so freakin' many facets to this world of derby -- and the fascination in wondering how they fit together...and fit together within me...is outrageous.  i now realize it matters not that i need to figure it out...ever.  there is room for everything...and nothing is categorized.  i love that the boundaries here are open.  the puzzle is edgeless.

so i can say that though i don't but barely know them, i DO know that i love them and that my heart joyfully sings out to them...with them...these three people who let derby envelop them and share in with them this special moment.

the family here is huge.  and to be part of that is special.  to me.